Recently Ive been thinking about shifting from blogger.com due to some stupid reasons, may be because going from one blog site to another is like changing a place, an
apartment, or even a country, kind of running from that place where u
have a lot of memories (sometimes not so happy), and trying to hide
from all that, and simply seeking a safe place to start a new life.
There
are moments, days, and even years in our lives, when we stop writing,
talking or even thinking. When all we need is just a simple quiet, a
silence for our hearts. All those smart and philosophical thoughts
from the past become useless, and so contradictory and right at that moment we start
growing up. This process is often very painful, and it can destroy
everything we've been believing to, living with, and dreaming
of....almost everything. And the question "Why?" is becoming a priority
among all other questions. We keep asking this question to our friends,
family members, colleagues, and sometimes even to unknown passersby. We start resemble ourselves those poor people we used to meet during our life, who couldn't find enough strength in themselves to get over the
troubles.
And we promise ourselves that this period will not be too
long, and that after some time we will be fine, but as for now the only
thing we want is to be far from everything. We identify ourselves with people from our favorite movies, trying to find excuses for the Life
for acting with us like that, we keep telling " well, she had the
same situation, but she survived, and so will I, so will I" . It's not a
depression or a stress, or something that is related to our physical
state, its just a way we choose to live ... to live when the meaning of life and existence are forcefully changed. Remembering ourselves in oldie
times, propagandizing our friends to keep fighting for their
love and life now seems quite weird ( still somewhere deep inside we still
believe in Faith).
But still we know and
promise to ourselves that this period will not take too much time, and we will survive through the sufferings and pain, and will have a unique
reincarnation ...we will do someday, in future...but as for now... I'd better tell I'm staying...
